I feel nothing. I'm numb. These last few weeks have been hard, so so hard. I want to cry, but I can't... I can't allow this to take over my life, our life. So I'll keep moving, keep getting up every morning, keep putting a smile on my face, keep laughing and joking, keep pretending. But I'll feel nothing.. I don't have time to. I have a life to live, even if it is a childless one.
